Christianity and My Quest

Western life in its entirety is based on Christian teachings. Law, schools, how people think and even what is, or is not, moral. When i discovered what i did it made me question every aspect of my life, even how i think and feel.

It started with Christmas, as we all know this is one of the main dates on a western calender, every child dreams of this day. I knew that Christianity latched their "Christmas" to another popular celebration of the time to gain members. I also found out that Christianity adopted other popular words and trends. Such as the word Satan. Satan means "the accuser", the Jews called God it for a while after not saving them in some situation, it then became popular to call god by this name and then the christians adopted the popular word and changed the meaning, just as they did with the Christmas celebration. This made me think about what else the Christians had adopted and made up. I could not trust anything that was based on Christianity, not even my life.

Since my early years i was taught by Christian values, i was taught what was right and wrong. I could not trust that this was actually what is right and wrong. I couldn't trust how i acted and thought and i could not bear to listen what was right and wrong from my parents and teachers who were blindly following what they were taught from when they were young, they did not know what the hell they were talking about and when i confronted them and told them so i am punished as i am wrong even though i have more knowledge and information on the subject. I wiped my slate clean, nothing was immoral, nothing was true, there was nothing that could not be changed.

I started to look for organisations, or even other people that thought the same way as me. I looked at everything, freemasons, knights templar, hashshashin. I could not find any existing groups that thought my way, that looked at life in the same way and certainly not anyone that could reveal the secrets of society, where it originated and why religion surfaced.

So today my quest continues. I am trying to find a group of like minded people and trying to discover at least my family origins if not the origins of society. I am forced to live a life by Christian laws and rules but still try and find my answers.